What people never understand is that depression isn’t about the outside; it’s about the inside. Something inside me is wrong.
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone.
I didn’t know how to express my feelings on this book in a review so instead I made a playlist. Each song, I think, incorporates some aspect of the book from characters to events. Sadly these are all fairly recent songs (with lyrics).
Aysel would be so annoyed.
If I Die Young — The Band Perry // I Believe — Christina Perri // Nightingale — Demi Lovato // My Blood — Ellie Goulding // Missing — Evanescence // Pumped Up Kicks — Foster the People // Wonderful World — James Morrison // Change Your Life — Little Mix // Let It Go — James Bay // I Miss Her — Jessie J // Far Too Young to Die — Panic at the Disco // When It Rains — Paramore // Fuckin’ Perfect — Pink // Your Guardian Angel — The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus // I’m In Here — Sia // Sing For Me — Yellowcard